I could only be friends with guys if it was my boyfriends friend and EVEN then, homie hoppin. LMAO Because lets face it, guys only want one thing. I don't think girls can "be friends"  with a dude without some form of crush or emotional attachment on either part. If it's not the case for others, then you're lying! haha JK. Onto my point...I haven't changed being nice to people, these days I brush it off the shoulder if someone is rude, doesn't bother me. 

       Within my drinking career, I can't exactly say that I did. I can't figure out if it was because I was always lied to, cheated and beaten on by boyfriends/fiance...my walls came up and they weren't made of bricks. My fortress was guarded by tungsten walls. There were clay-mores, electric fences, an old medieval archery team ready to shoot and spill green fire like it's the King's Landing and loose zombies (the fast ones) guarding my piranha, alligator and box jellyfish infested moat. I had become cold and distant. Wasn't anyone's fault. I've been through the ringer since I was 16 with my first boyfriend. That is a story for another time.

No one can truly prepare someone for what was to come. A fun-loving young lady, turned bruised and broken. To this very day, I can't say I am ready for any relationship. I tried for 20 years to find true love, now I am just tired. haha I can't say I will never date again, but the next has to be some kinda very special man. So if anyone is reading this and I was ever mean to you...I apologize. 

The saying is correct though. Treat others the way you want to be treated. Wasn't the case for me back then, but the important take-away is that it is now. 

Captains Blog 2. May 6th, 2025.

I'm out! Mic drop.